I added “he” to my list of pronouns. So that makes it “he/they/them” now.
#Refer to me as a boy or w/e#Pretty boy idc#i.e Jun is so cute they’re really cute!!#He’s such a cutie he’s adorable#Or some shit like that#Ok??? Okay thank you
reblogged from my main/personal
It’s possible for me to develop crushes on boys, but anything more than that, my mind stops? I really did like a guy for an entire year. My feelings were so strong but my intentions were to never truly go out with him? I wanted to meet him, hold him and we could hold hands and do gay best friends things together. Do you feel me??
And now that I had my first kiss with a guy, I was hella confused for the entire fucking week. I like him?? He likes me more and we’re taking things slow, nothing is official. I feel like I’m confronting my sexuality (again), but I’m pretty sure I’m asexual. Yeah, I have a lot of kinks but my sex drive is kind of low? No real desire besides to bully my male friends for the mental stimulation it gives me. My depression isn’t doing too well in the more recent years, when I discovered I had a gender identity issue back in 2012. And with the events of my ex, best friend, among some other things, it gradually got worse.
If I had a girlfriend, and she wanted to have sex, I would agree to it, despite being really shy and probably uncomfy. I feel safer, easier, more lovable around girls. I’m affectionate, not as guarded and I’m gay as fuck. Honestly, I feel like a pansexual/queer/whatever boy trapped in a girl’s body. If I were a guy, I’d be the best friend you couldn’t tell who was gay or not. I’d have a lot of gay tendencies with dudes, making them feel uncomfy, touching them, but I’d be the sweetest around girls. I love girls so much and I’d probably be a fucking whore if I were an actual man LOL. Maybe the reason why I was born female was to keep a stable balance in my mind??
So what does any of this make me? What is my identity?? What are the proper terms?? I don’t think I’m sexually attracted to males. All I really think about most is kissing some, making cuter boys “mine” in the sense of Vincent—- a puppy. A cute puppy I can show off the people and boss around. I guess….underlings? I murder my enemies, steal their men and marry their women and the nonbinaries.
Everything is beginning to……make sense??
Someone help me understand, please.
you’re not pretty boy, you’re a drop-dead gorgeous boy!
!!! Thank you so much ;____;
I just want people to fucking acknowledge the fact that I’m not a fucking girl and I’m not that fucking easily submissive. I’m short as fuck, and I got nice thighs but I’m tired of being seen as a sack of fucking meat, and having to hear what girls are supposed to be.
I’m a failure as a girl. I’m not that fucking feminine, and never really was. I’m sorry.
I hate being a girl. I’m just a pretty boy. That’s all I am.
I missed the 666 followers mark -___________________-
Anyway, I kinda have bad news. I’m probably going to go on a mini hiatus for a while, because of school and uh, some other things……
I’ll still check the blog for fanmail or messages. This goes the same for my main too. I’m not leaving Dubcon under the care of anyone, so I’m sorry for it.
See you soon. I might update occasionally or something.